chestnutcurls | please don't go girl

Some days I feel like the worst employee ever. I try to get enthusiastic about my job, but there's only so much interest I can work up. It's even harder when it seems like everything I do goes wrong. For instance, this filing project. I'm re-labeling our 1000+ hotel property files with their correct names (they change a lot), and I'm on Pennsylvania now. It's annoying work, but I've been glad thinking of how smoothly things will run when it's all finished. This morning, I found out that some of the names I was given are incorrect, so now I look like a screw-up. This is just one of many little things that make me despair of ever having a successful career. Yesterday, in the midst of a conference call to discuss legal issues, I thought, Maybe I shouldn't have to work so hard at enjoying and understanding my job. I'd just like it if I could do something well for a change.

Only two more band practices, then Easter, and then I have a break. Even though Jean Larroux isn't teaching it anymore, I think I'll start going back to the Wednesday night Bible study. It seems like forever since I was part of a weekly study. Maybe I'll feel more grounded or something.

Really, I'm not having a bad day. It just sounds like it. Sorry. Some Good Things: Jessica called me last night! I woke up this morning to the cat sleeping on my feet. I finished Ezra, and got more out of its 10 chapters than I did out of the 30something of Ezekiel. I think Galatians is next, but I need to check my list.

Finally...Be afraid. Be very afraid.