in need of a compass

[chestnutcurls]

My camera has arrived! :) I went home for lunch, and there it sat in front of the door. I opened the box to make sure, but didn't take it out of the plastic or anything. I'll play with it tonight while we watch all our shows. Yay!

Lately I feel sort of...spiritually icky. Like the world has contaminated me. I'm noticing afresh how little time I spend thinking about God, and Godly things, and how much time I spend engrossed in books and TV and stuff. Those things aren't bad, but I always feel like I could be doing something more profitable. I think this is why I go to so many Bible studies- I can't seem to stay in a Godly mindset on my own. I need to be picked up and put back into the Word over and over again, like my cat, who repeatedly climbs onto the dining room table and has to be repeatedly picked up and set on the floor. Sometimes I want to move to Africa or someplace and do ministry, out in the middle of nowhere where I will have nothing else to do but serve God. That way I can't fritter away my life. I know I'm saved by faith and not works, but I am supposed to bear spiritual fruit. I want to be a light for Christ, but I don't know how or even if I am doing that in my life. I need direction. I need something to do, something I can get excited about. I have no idea what that could be.

Comments

[moredetails.livejournal.com]

Hey, I understand your thoughts on this one. Often I feel like I am not being a very obvious witness of Jesus in my life. I have tried to keep my thoughts on him a lot more in the past few months. I try to remember him as I wake up and go to sleep. Yet, I still get on myself for not reading enough, not praying enough, not doing this or that.

Sometimes I think it would be nice to just get away and spend all my time in worship and study, but I think part of our challenge in life (and opportunity to show God how much we want to serve him) is to fit Him into our day despite the distractions. It's sort of like the tree in the garden of Eden.

[mszimbolist.livejournal.com]

what kinda camera?

[salemgirl.livejournal.com]

I totally understand. Even when you're in ministry (heck, working at a church and going to seminary I feel like I'm immersed in it all the time) something will be there to distract you. What we all strive for, however, is keeping him in front of us at all times, rather than pushing Him behind... Easier said than done.... *sigh*