![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
chestnutcurlsI want to thank you all for your nice words about Bun. They're comforting to me. I am blessed with so many caring friends. I e-mailed a few other people yesterday morning, Alli being one of them. She called and left me a condolence voicemail, and then even told our church/RUF friends so I wouldn't have to. Everyone knows how special he was to me, so they (mostly) knew not to be insensitive about the situation. When Matt and Chris got to church this morning, they said, "Sorry about Bun." I was like, "How did you know?" Everyone has been so nice. Thanks.
I spent yesterday at my parents'. Debs had arrived earlier, and we buried Bun in the yard. It was very sad. I was worried about Debra; she's doing okay, but she says this has been the worst week of her life and I don't doubt it. It was hard being at the house all day because we all kept having knee-jerk reactions of wanting to go see him. Ryan came over for dinner, and then Myla came and we played Family Feud. So that cheered us up some and was helpful. I felt better with Ryan there- he's really like part of our family now. Evan had to work all day and then work on the truck, which was difficult because I really needed to be with him. But we talked on the phone and he was very sweet and comforting. His dog, who he'd had for most of his life, had to be put to sleep right after we started dating. It was sudden and he didn't get to say goodbye. So he understood exactly how I felt. After talking to him I felt a lot more peaceful. Really, this is the best way it could have happened. Recently I had started to worry about whether we'd have to put Bun to sleep eventually, and I didn't think I could handle knowing about it before, or seeing him ill. God worked it all out.
I'm doing okay but I keep having sudden bursts of sadness. I made Evan a pie today, which obviously had nothing to do with Bun, but when I was serving it I suddenly thought of him and got upset again. Hopefully I can make it through work tomorrow without making an idiot of myself. Please forgive my endless rambling about a bunny. I'm sure this is funny or dumb to some people, but this is how I feel. :( We had Bun for eight years- the week we got him, I was going through my senior band camp. He always gave me so much joy. He really was like a member of our family. I will always be grateful for the years I had with him. I'm having a lot of questions now about animals and heaven and that sort of thing. I know animals don't have souls, but doesn't the Bible say there will be animals in heaven? The lion and the lamb peacefully together? I know it's symbolic, but could it be literal too? I don't know. Anyway, thanks for listening. I'm going to bed now.
I spent yesterday at my parents'. Debs had arrived earlier, and we buried Bun in the yard. It was very sad. I was worried about Debra; she's doing okay, but she says this has been the worst week of her life and I don't doubt it. It was hard being at the house all day because we all kept having knee-jerk reactions of wanting to go see him. Ryan came over for dinner, and then Myla came and we played Family Feud. So that cheered us up some and was helpful. I felt better with Ryan there- he's really like part of our family now. Evan had to work all day and then work on the truck, which was difficult because I really needed to be with him. But we talked on the phone and he was very sweet and comforting. His dog, who he'd had for most of his life, had to be put to sleep right after we started dating. It was sudden and he didn't get to say goodbye. So he understood exactly how I felt. After talking to him I felt a lot more peaceful. Really, this is the best way it could have happened. Recently I had started to worry about whether we'd have to put Bun to sleep eventually, and I didn't think I could handle knowing about it before, or seeing him ill. God worked it all out.
I'm doing okay but I keep having sudden bursts of sadness. I made Evan a pie today, which obviously had nothing to do with Bun, but when I was serving it I suddenly thought of him and got upset again. Hopefully I can make it through work tomorrow without making an idiot of myself. Please forgive my endless rambling about a bunny. I'm sure this is funny or dumb to some people, but this is how I feel. :( We had Bun for eight years- the week we got him, I was going through my senior band camp. He always gave me so much joy. He really was like a member of our family. I will always be grateful for the years I had with him. I'm having a lot of questions now about animals and heaven and that sort of thing. I know animals don't have souls, but doesn't the Bible say there will be animals in heaven? The lion and the lamb peacefully together? I know it's symbolic, but could it be literal too? I don't know. Anyway, thanks for listening. I'm going to bed now.
