you'll be with me next time
Oct. 2nd, 2003 04:00 pmI guess I should update, huh? I've been typing so much today, I'm about to get carpal tunnel syndrome. Ouch.
Do you guys have corn mazes in your towns? There's a big one at the Agricenter and I want to go to it. My brother went last week and had a blast. Maybe I can get a group together this weekend.
Our living room TV is slowly dying. Kathy's had it since our freshman year, and the picture is getting steadily worse. I had mentioned to Evan that we needed a new one but didn't want to spend the money. Last night he showed up at the apartment with another TV! It was one that he'd had in storage from his old apartment, and he brought it all the way over to surprise me. :) He's the most thoughtful boyfriend in the world. Unfortunately, it wasn't much better than our current TV, and it's too big for the entertainment center. So he took it back. But I was so touched that he would think of that. :)
Last night as I was listening to Room for Squares I realized that I live my life defensively, not offensively. It seems like my life mainly consists of stuff happening to me and me reacting to it. I don't really go out and make my life. Does that make sense? I mean, I've done lots of fun and good things this year, but I don't feel like I've grown much. I haven't been Pondering or making Life-Altering Decisions or Seizing the Day. I haven't changed careers or moved to an unfamiliar place. Maybe I'm not in that season of life anymore. Lately I feel more settled. Is that necessarily bad? It's something to think about, anyway.
Do you guys have corn mazes in your towns? There's a big one at the Agricenter and I want to go to it. My brother went last week and had a blast. Maybe I can get a group together this weekend.
Our living room TV is slowly dying. Kathy's had it since our freshman year, and the picture is getting steadily worse. I had mentioned to Evan that we needed a new one but didn't want to spend the money. Last night he showed up at the apartment with another TV! It was one that he'd had in storage from his old apartment, and he brought it all the way over to surprise me. :) He's the most thoughtful boyfriend in the world. Unfortunately, it wasn't much better than our current TV, and it's too big for the entertainment center. So he took it back. But I was so touched that he would think of that. :)
Last night as I was listening to Room for Squares I realized that I live my life defensively, not offensively. It seems like my life mainly consists of stuff happening to me and me reacting to it. I don't really go out and make my life. Does that make sense? I mean, I've done lots of fun and good things this year, but I don't feel like I've grown much. I haven't been Pondering or making Life-Altering Decisions or Seizing the Day. I haven't changed careers or moved to an unfamiliar place. Maybe I'm not in that season of life anymore. Lately I feel more settled. Is that necessarily bad? It's something to think about, anyway.
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Date: 2003-10-02 02:09 pm (UTC)I think it's easier to feel settled in where you are when you're in a serious relationship nearby that person. :) I have been feeling more settled, too. I'm getting past that need to have drastic changes. I think it's a good thing. I was reading a book that mentioned how important it is for families to settle somewhere instead of moving around a lot, so think of it as preparation for that mindset!
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Date: 2003-10-02 02:34 pm (UTC)I don't think being settled is a bad thing. As long as you're happy where you are and in what you're doing, there's no need to make drastic changes. But if you are still looking for adventure every once in a while, you don't need to go somewhere exotic. You can turn almost any activity into an adventure. I do that sometimes. It makes me feel like I have an exciting life.
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Date: 2003-10-02 03:29 pm (UTC)Yay midwest! ;_;
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Date: 2003-10-02 06:06 pm (UTC)re: last paragraph
Date: 2003-10-02 08:04 pm (UTC)this is something I've thought about a lot lately... not that I have figured out exactly what I think about it. =P You know, I think that one can feel settled -- and I think that's a good thing, to settle into a sort of peace in God -- while expanding horizons and looking for new ways to serve God.
I know what you mean with living life on the defensive instead of the offensive - I dont' know how bad that is for any given person, but for me it's wasting leadership resources that I know I have. I've been focusing this semester on letting God push me out of my comfort zone just so that I can be more useful, and He has been doing JUST THAT. I feel very at peace about it, though. ...at least, consciously. my extreme anxiety is another matter and I don't know where it comes from.
but who says anyone needs to make career changes or make life-altering decisions all the time?
another way I like to think about this is that if I died tomorrow, what I did for others today would make all the difference; not the decisions I made for my own future, or my dreams. thinking about the future & other issues can make me a more interesting & useful person in the long run, I guess....
I"m rambling and not relaly going anywhere. =P
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Date: 2003-10-02 08:23 pm (UTC)I have to admit that I'm more driven to make life bend to my will than to react to it. Maybe not in quite so strong terms though ... heh :)
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Date: 2003-10-04 06:59 pm (UTC)Being settled isn't bad at all. Enjoy this season.