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I did a lot of thinking last night. I realized that I do not enjoy living by myself anymore. There are still good points, one of the main ones being that I can play any music I want as loud as I want whenever I want. :) But it is lonely. And boring. When I come home, no one is waiting for me. If I had a fun night, no one rejoices with me, and if I had an awful night, no one comforts me. Instead I have empty walls that silently shout at me, "Yeah, so what."
And when I was living at home, I got hugs from my family all the time. Now I have no one to hug. Just a lot of plush bunnies, which are not as good as my real bunny, who I never see either.
I understand that this is driving me closer to God and making me see my dependence on Him. And I am glad about that. I need to learn to go through hard times in a more gracious, faithful way, instead of whining about them all the time. :(
And so with that, I will close.

(no subject)

I did a lot of thinking last night. I realized that I do not enjoy living by myself anymore. There are still good points, one of the main ones being that I can play any music I want as loud as I want whenever I want. :) But it is lonely. And boring. When I come home, no one is waiting for me. If I had a fun night, no one rejoices with me, and if I had an awful night, no one comforts me. Instead I have empty walls that silently shout at me, "Yeah, so what."
And when I was living at home, I got hugs from my family all the time. Now I have no one to hug. Just a lot of plush bunnies, which are not as good as my real bunny, who I never see either.
I understand that this is driving me closer to God and making me see my dependence on Him. And I am glad about that. I need to learn to go through hard times in a more gracious, faithful way, instead of whining about them all the time. :(
And so with that, I will close.