new leaves

Lots to talk about today, but I spent a chunk of my afternoon on the phone with the Microsoft helpdesk, so I only have time for one thing: a Serious Post.

I have changed my journal/website name. I had the grace to glory name for a couple of years, and it kind of signified my life perspective...I was always on the way to something better. Most of the time I was trudging through life. I didn't feel like I had much to look forward to. It's good and healthy for Christians to long for heaven, but I'm not sure I had the right reasons for doing so.

In the last few months, God has changed me. I feel more optimistic than I can remember feeling in a long time (maybe ever). Obviously, my dream coming true was a big factor, but thankfully I don't think that's the whole reason. The displaced feeling of my post-RUF years is finally fading away and I'm feeling more comfortable in my own, adult life. I still miss those times, but I don't need to live in them anymore. For the most part I'm looking forward happily to the future, instead of dreading a life of loneliness and stagnancy (?). I feel ready to work on my faults but don't feel crushed by them. I don't expect everything to be rosy, but I'm more secure in the knowledge that God will make it all work together for good. I'm noticing the little miracles in life more and more, and I finally believe that they are for me, too, not just for other people. So I will now call this chronicle of my life Everyday Miracles. I honestly came up with this myself and didn't know until today that it's the name of a Sara Groves song. I now plan to check her CD out of the library. :)

I hope that made sense. Tune in tomorrow for a normal entry. :)

new leaves

Lots to talk about today, but I spent a chunk of my afternoon on the phone with the Microsoft helpdesk, so I only have time for one thing: a Serious Post.

I have changed my journal/website name. I had the grace to glory name for a couple of years, and it kind of signified my life perspective...I was always on the way to something better. Most of the time I was trudging through life. I didn't feel like I had much to look forward to. It's good and healthy for Christians to long for heaven, but I'm not sure I had the right reasons for doing so.

In the last few months, God has changed me. I feel more optimistic than I can remember feeling in a long time (maybe ever). Obviously, my dream coming true was a big factor, but thankfully I don't think that's the whole reason. The displaced feeling of my post-RUF years is finally fading away and I'm feeling more comfortable in my own, adult life. I still miss those times, but I don't need to live in them anymore. For the most part I'm looking forward happily to the future, instead of dreading a life of loneliness and stagnancy (?). I feel ready to work on my faults but don't feel crushed by them. I don't expect everything to be rosy, but I'm more secure in the knowledge that God will make it all work together for good. I'm noticing the little miracles in life more and more, and I finally believe that they are for me, too, not just for other people. So I will now call this chronicle of my life Everyday Miracles. I honestly came up with this myself and didn't know until today that it's the name of a Sara Groves song. I now plan to check her CD out of the library. :)

I hope that made sense. Tune in tomorrow for a normal entry. :)