too much thinking gives me a headache :)

So my head really hurts. It's not much fun.

I made it to 5:00 yesterday, but when I got home, I went to bed and pretty much stayed there until this morning. I got up briefly around 9 to talk with Kathy and eat some pudding, but then it was back to sleep. I felt much better when I got up today, but now the headache has kicked in and I feel like I could stand another 12-hour nap. (Sorry for being cranky at lunch, Jeremy and Lawson. :() I'm amazed at those of you who deal with bad headaches on a daily basis. How do you even function like a normal person? You guys are studs.

It's been a while since I said anything profound here. Maybe because my thoughts have not been very profound lately. I haven't been "feeling spiritual." What I have been feeling is some disappointment in my life and a lot of fear about the future. Both of these things show that I trust God very little, and that I doubt His goodness to me.

I long to be married. My younger sister got married two months ago. She now has an adoring husband, a beautiful home, a whirlpool bathtub, and all-new Corningware. Is God being any less good to me than he is to her? The answer is a resounding no. God will not be less good to me because God cannot be less good to me. It is a cosmic impossibility for God to shortchange any of his children...If he fluctuated one quark in his goodness he would cease to be God.
- Paige Benton, "Singled Out for Good"

I know this is true. But I guess my heart doesn't believe it, and that is my problem. The end. :)

too much thinking gives me a headache :)

So my head really hurts. It's not much fun.

I made it to 5:00 yesterday, but when I got home, I went to bed and pretty much stayed there until this morning. I got up briefly around 9 to talk with Kathy and eat some pudding, but then it was back to sleep. I felt much better when I got up today, but now the headache has kicked in and I feel like I could stand another 12-hour nap. (Sorry for being cranky at lunch, Jeremy and Lawson. :() I'm amazed at those of you who deal with bad headaches on a daily basis. How do you even function like a normal person? You guys are studs.

It's been a while since I said anything profound here. Maybe because my thoughts have not been very profound lately. I haven't been "feeling spiritual." What I have been feeling is some disappointment in my life and a lot of fear about the future. Both of these things show that I trust God very little, and that I doubt His goodness to me.

I long to be married. My younger sister got married two months ago. She now has an adoring husband, a beautiful home, a whirlpool bathtub, and all-new Corningware. Is God being any less good to me than he is to her? The answer is a resounding no. God will not be less good to me because God cannot be less good to me. It is a cosmic impossibility for God to shortchange any of his children...If he fluctuated one quark in his goodness he would cease to be God.
- Paige Benton, "Singled Out for Good"

I know this is true. But I guess my heart doesn't believe it, and that is my problem. The end. :)