too much thinking gives me a headache :)

[chestnutcurls]

So my head really hurts. It's not much fun.

I made it to 5:00 yesterday, but when I got home, I went to bed and pretty much stayed there until this morning. I got up briefly around 9 to talk with Kathy and eat some pudding, but then it was back to sleep. I felt much better when I got up today, but now the headache has kicked in and I feel like I could stand another 12-hour nap. (Sorry for being cranky at lunch, Jeremy and Lawson. :() I'm amazed at those of you who deal with bad headaches on a daily basis. How do you even function like a normal person? You guys are studs.

It's been a while since I said anything profound here. Maybe because my thoughts have not been very profound lately. I haven't been "feeling spiritual." What I have been feeling is some disappointment in my life and a lot of fear about the future. Both of these things show that I trust God very little, and that I doubt His goodness to me.

I long to be married. My younger sister got married two months ago. She now has an adoring husband, a beautiful home, a whirlpool bathtub, and all-new Corningware. Is God being any less good to me than he is to her? The answer is a resounding no. God will not be less good to me because God cannot be less good to me. It is a cosmic impossibility for God to shortchange any of his children...If he fluctuated one quark in his goodness he would cease to be God.
- Paige Benton, "Singled Out for Good"

I know this is true. But I guess my heart doesn't believe it, and that is my problem. The end. :)

Comments

[yakk0dotorg]

I wouldn't consider myself a normal person by any means. :P Most light headache days I can deal with the pain. Mild headache days I try to use pain killers (most don't work), and I suffer through the day. Migraine days I don't even get out of bed.

[lifeofpatrick.livejournal.com]

as long as my caffinee intake remains at a stable level I avoid headaches most of the time but then again as my jaw click get louder I'm sure headaches will be in my future. my wisdom teeth changed my bite which in turn made my jaw rebel against my mouth. as long as I do not chew gum I can normally get by ok.

"It's been a while since I said anything profound here"
thats ok it is a journal. mine is just a bunch of random outbursts most of the time not correct grammer or spelling wise

[chestnutcurls.livejournal.com]

I get headaches from chewing gum too. That's weird. I never met anyone else who had that problem. :) You probably should get your wisdom teeth out, if they're bothering you. :(

Yeah, I know it's just a journal. But so many of the blogs I read are always posting these inspiring, deep, theological things, and so I feel like an idiot every time I talk about headaches or trips or the movie Kathy and I just watched. I'm surprised (but glad) you guys stay with me. :)

[moredetails.livejournal.com]

Oh I totally get headaches from chewing gum! So does my mom.

[lifeofpatrick.livejournal.com]

I have enought room for my wisdom teeth so at this time I'm told they do not need to be removed. What happed was I was told was that I would never get them so they did not factor me ever getting them when I had braces. So when they came in they just un did all the alignment work of the braces. my teeth are mostly stright it is just my bite thats off center now. It must be a genetic thing since both my mother and brother had jaw surgey to correct the TMJ.

[tingilya.livejournal.com]

Paige Benton. Why do I feel like I know her? That name just jumped out at me.

And as for daily headaches, after suffering from them (and I mean *suffering*) for four years before getting them fixed, I look back now and honestly don't know how I survived. I was pretty miserable. They're really hard to control, too. I hope that's not what's wrong with you. I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy.

[chestnutcurls.livejournal.com]

She used to be the RUF intern at Vanderbilt. Now she works for a big PCA church in Dallas. I've never heard her speak, but I'm told she is incredible.

No, I don't think that's what's wrong, thankfully. I think it's mainly sinus problems. :P

[aardwolf.livejournal.com]

When you said "You guys are studs", you were talking about Jeremy and myself, right? Good.. that's what I thought. :P

RE:

[(Anonymous)]

Wait a second.... I think she is talking about all of us chronic headache sufferers! And while I am slightly disconcerted at being called a 'stud,' I'm always up for compliments. ;) - Emily

[chestnutcurls.livejournal.com]

Yes, I was mainly thinking of you when I wrote that. :)

[yakk0dotorg]

you don't get chronic headaches, sorry you're out. :P

[aardwolf.livejournal.com]

That doesn't mean I'm not a stud...

it's alright

[verseseven.livejournal.com]

"When God like a Father denies us what we want now, it's in order to give us a far better thing. The will of God is invariably better." Elisabeth Elliott

I discovered this quote the day I graduated high school and it has been a comfort. Whenever I've found myself to be disappointed because God hasn't given me what I wanted and (thought I) deserved, this quote has been proven. If He says no, it's for something WAY WAY WAY better! God has been so faithful to me in this! When I whine and complain like a brat, I later am so thankful God did not give me what I wanted so badly! Sorry, this might not relate to you, but gee...it's cheered me up! :)