don't save it all for Christmas Day

I get to leave at 1 today! Yay!

Last night my dad called to give me the rundown of tomorrow's plans, and now I feel much more Christmasy. I'm excited about spending some time with my family (and Bun). I think I wasn't in the spirit because Evan is gone, but we've never spent a Christmas together, so that doesn't really make sense. Today is the halfway mark of our separation. This morning on TV I saw a woman whose soldier husband was home for the holidays; she hadn't seen him in three months. I felt convicted about missing Evan so much when he is safe, well-fed, and coming home soon.

I am reading Susan Hunt's The True Woman, and it's kicking my butt. From the first page I have felt sinful and pathetic. I am so indoctrinated into our feminist culture and I don't even know it. I am selfish and unhelpful. Yet the thought of living in total servitude, shunning all pleasure and happiness, depresses me. I am so worthless. Thank God that a Savior was born to pay for my worthlessness. Maybe in time I will get better.

Anyway, to end on a happy note, I hope all of you have wonderful, merry Christmases! :)

don't save it all for Christmas Day

I get to leave at 1 today! Yay!

Last night my dad called to give me the rundown of tomorrow's plans, and now I feel much more Christmasy. I'm excited about spending some time with my family (and Bun). I think I wasn't in the spirit because Evan is gone, but we've never spent a Christmas together, so that doesn't really make sense. Today is the halfway mark of our separation. This morning on TV I saw a woman whose soldier husband was home for the holidays; she hadn't seen him in three months. I felt convicted about missing Evan so much when he is safe, well-fed, and coming home soon.

I am reading Susan Hunt's The True Woman, and it's kicking my butt. From the first page I have felt sinful and pathetic. I am so indoctrinated into our feminist culture and I don't even know it. I am selfish and unhelpful. Yet the thought of living in total servitude, shunning all pleasure and happiness, depresses me. I am so worthless. Thank God that a Savior was born to pay for my worthlessness. Maybe in time I will get better.

Anyway, to end on a happy note, I hope all of you have wonderful, merry Christmases! :)