stream of consciousness

[chestnutcurls]

Happy birthday verseseven!!!

I've made a few changes to my photo page, but nothing major. I have a ton of pictures I'd like to add, but unfortunately the university scanner acts up every time I try to use it. Maybe because I'm not supposed to be using it. :P

Tonight marks the return of my Wednesday night Bible study! Our topic is the Church as the Bride of Christ. I am looking forward to it. After years of going to Bible studies three and four nights a week, cutting it down to one has been weird for me. I just don't learn as well on my own. I can read over a chapter three times, and never get out of it what I would have gotten if I was listening to someone teach it. I guess I just need to pray for more wisdom and insight when reading. Of course, once we understand something we're supposed to obey it, which will cause me to know my sin when I don't obey. Which will show me again how sinful I am and how much I need a Savior. Oh...there's the point. :)

I'm feeling sad about my various groups of friends. They're sort of falling apart, as I said the other day. RUF is just weird now, because it's full of people I don't know (mostly freshmen). My friends and I are now the "old crowd," and lately it's hard to even get us in a room together. I do have other people to hang out with, and Ryan and I hang out a lot, but I miss the way things used to be. Kathy's always with her boyfriend and his friends, and Evan's always with his truckin' buddies, and I don't see either of them as much as I would like. And the less I see them, the more frustrated I feel, and the more likely I am to be childish and huffy about not seeing them, and spout a bunch of saved-up nonsense at them, making them want to stay away from me until I can act normal. :) It's a vicious cycle. I'm trying to figure out how to stop it. :P

One of the sort-of-old-crowd RUF girls is auditioning for The Real World. It's funny, because I really think she might make it. She's the right kind of person for it. Also, she goes to CBU, which is where Keri from the Chicago cast used to go. I'll keep all of you posted on that. :)

Does anyone (besides Lawson) watch Scrubs? (If not, you should.) Do you remember the one where J.D. (I think that's his name) had to hang out with the older doctor and his patient for several days, and they did this funny Real World-intro thing? I just thought of that. Okay, I'll shut up now.

Comments

[ex-lifeofbri692.livejournal.com]

scrubs seriously rules. I've only seen it twice but I seriously LMAO.

[lifeofpatrick.livejournal.com]

Scrubs was the best new comody last season. I can not wait to it starts back. I want Doogie Howser (Neil Patrick Harris) to have a walk on part. That would just be too much fun. My brother was standing beside him on the train in NYC the other day and kicked him self for not saying anything to him.

From the preview ads for scrubs last year I thought they it was going to be really bad but I watched the premire show and my mind was quickly changed. Do you remember the first ads for the show.

[chestnutcurls.livejournal.com]

No, I didn't start watching it until about a month or two ago.

[sominfun.livejournal.com]

I can totally sympathize with your struggles to study the Bible on your own. When I first became reformed I had a real fire in my heart. I would wake up early each morning for devotionals, and I would spend quality time praying each night. Somewhere along the way, though, I've been distracted. Now I have much more of a shotgun approach. I'll randomly read scripture or I'll choose something out of midair and look up all the scripture I can find about it. Sometimes I'll work my way through books too. A great book about the Christian walk is Discipline by Grace by Jerry Bridges. I've just recently begun a collection of Calvin's sermons on the Ten Commandments. Books help me focus on a topic or an area, which helps me to remember what I'm learning a lot better. I have to be careful to remember that these books aren't the word of God, though, and that I should always go back to the Bible to check the validity of whatever the author has written.

I can also sympathize with what you wrote about your friends. The entire transition from college into the real world is quite startling to say the least. A lot of my friends and I have experienced similar things. When you are in high school, it seems like everyone goes out of their way to prepare you for college, but few people warn you about the changes you experience once you graduate from college. You start a new chapter in your life, and it really is almost like starting over. The people you were accustomed to seeing every day you now only see once in awhile. You're supposed to spend the majority of your time at this place called work, and you haven't had much say on who your coworkers are. Even though the may be nice people, they aren't your friends and sometimes they aren't even your peers. Unfortunately change is inevitable. On my 'to read' list is the book Who Moved my Cheese?, which is supposed to be a great book about dealing with change. I don't know if it's encouraging to you or not, but I've noticed that the quality of the time I spend with my old college friends is improving. We sort of embrace each opportunity we have and run with it. Also, when I still lived near my close friends, and we were all busy living our own lives, we would schedule regular weekly quality time. Like a lunch date on every Wednesday or breakfast on every Saturday. That way we didn't drift apart, and we knew we would see each other at least once a week or a month or whatever worked for the friendship. Just a thought.