she came down from the mountain
Oct. 30th, 2002 09:42 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
chestnutcurlsGandalf is settling well into his new home! He was nervous when I first brought him home, but before long he was jumping onto the couch and watching TV with me. :) He is definitely a lap cat. Actually, he seems to prefer laying on our arms, making us unable to do anything without disturbing his kitty sleep. :) His favorite place is on top of the little cat tower we got him. At first he couldn't get down. This drove me to hysterical laughter, because, come on- Gandalf imprisoned on top of a tower! But now he's getting braver. He was starting to climb the furniture this morning.
I am still tired from yesterday. I never thought standing for a couple of hours in unsupportive shoes, sticking stickers on things, would wipe me out this way. It's very weird.
I didn't go to RUF last night, mainly because of the cat, but also because I need to not go there so much. This was the first time I had ever just stayed home, for no real reason. But guess what? Evan was there! Yes, the first RUF he's attended in two months, and it was the one I didn't go to. And Les Newsom was there, visiting and doing the message, so I missed him as well. I had planned to meet up with them afterwards, but Ryan called and told me everyone was just going home. This is seriously not my week.
Oh, here's something I wanted to talk about. I came across this site the other day, Barlow Girl. It's a group of girls who commit to dress modestly, be abstinent, and not date. The first two things, I'm all for; the third, obviously, not. See, part of the reason I reject the whole courtship thing is because, at my old age of 23, I would feel silly doing it. I've been wondering why I feel that way. What is it about courtship that seems to be only for younger girls? The intense parental involvement, partly; that really would be silly as I am independent from my parents. But I think courtship also requires a degree of optimism. There's the sort of expectation that you're going to be married before long, whether you're "courting" at the moment or not. And I haven't had a date since I was 19, so a life of singleness is looking really possible right now. Courtship is like, "Hey, I know you want me, so this is what you've got to do to get me." But I'm like, "Hey, nobody wants me, and extra rules would just make it worse." So maybe that's why I feel silly. Any thoughts on this?
I am still tired from yesterday. I never thought standing for a couple of hours in unsupportive shoes, sticking stickers on things, would wipe me out this way. It's very weird.
I didn't go to RUF last night, mainly because of the cat, but also because I need to not go there so much. This was the first time I had ever just stayed home, for no real reason. But guess what? Evan was there! Yes, the first RUF he's attended in two months, and it was the one I didn't go to. And Les Newsom was there, visiting and doing the message, so I missed him as well. I had planned to meet up with them afterwards, but Ryan called and told me everyone was just going home. This is seriously not my week.
Oh, here's something I wanted to talk about. I came across this site the other day, Barlow Girl. It's a group of girls who commit to dress modestly, be abstinent, and not date. The first two things, I'm all for; the third, obviously, not. See, part of the reason I reject the whole courtship thing is because, at my old age of 23, I would feel silly doing it. I've been wondering why I feel that way. What is it about courtship that seems to be only for younger girls? The intense parental involvement, partly; that really would be silly as I am independent from my parents. But I think courtship also requires a degree of optimism. There's the sort of expectation that you're going to be married before long, whether you're "courting" at the moment or not. And I haven't had a date since I was 19, so a life of singleness is looking really possible right now. Courtship is like, "Hey, I know you want me, so this is what you've got to do to get me." But I'm like, "Hey, nobody wants me, and extra rules would just make it worse." So maybe that's why I feel silly. Any thoughts on this?
