waiting on the one who maybe won't come
Jun. 6th, 2003 02:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
chestnutcurlsHello all! I'm feeling better today. By the time I left here yesterday I had a specific de-stress plan. 1) Go to water Nina's plants. 2) Go to McAlister's and get a salad. 3) Rent Friends Season 2, lie down, and watch all evening, without trying to do something else at the same time like I usually do. I accomplished all of these things. The variation was Ryan showing up at my door as I was leaving to water the plants, and coming along for the whole ride. He is a very relaxing presence, so I felt like God had sent him to help me calm down. :) Tonight I am planning more of the same, with Alli. Six more days till California.
Have I mentioned that my optometrist apparently wants to make me his science fair project? I went to get re-checked a couple of months ago so I could order another round of contacts. He decided to "tilt the axis" of my prescription. This resulted in annoying fuzzy vision in my left eye. I went back and pleaded for my old prescription, since it worked just fine. He got hostile and said that the old prescription would not "fix the problem" with my eye, whatever "the problem" is. So tomorrow I go back to Dexter's Laboratory for the fourth time so he can theorize some more about my astigmatism. He put my sister through a similar drama. My mother and I are pretty sure he is a quack, but I can't switch doctors until I get decent contacts.
Okay, here's a deep thought. I'm in II Chronicles now. I read about Rehoboam and his concubines this morning. The rampant polygamy in the Old Testament always bothers me. I feel so bad for all the wives and concubines, who, if they were lucky enough to love their husband, had to suffer through sharing him. Those women never got to experience real love with a man- and that was a normal situation. God allowed it for hundreds of years. Why? In light of this, I think we modern women assume too much. We assume God will give us the perfect happy relationship we want if we just wait on Him. Well, he didn't give it to those women. I know times are different now, and most people do get married these days...but something about it troubles me. Not for myself, really. Just in general.
Have I mentioned that my optometrist apparently wants to make me his science fair project? I went to get re-checked a couple of months ago so I could order another round of contacts. He decided to "tilt the axis" of my prescription. This resulted in annoying fuzzy vision in my left eye. I went back and pleaded for my old prescription, since it worked just fine. He got hostile and said that the old prescription would not "fix the problem" with my eye, whatever "the problem" is. So tomorrow I go back to Dexter's Laboratory for the fourth time so he can theorize some more about my astigmatism. He put my sister through a similar drama. My mother and I are pretty sure he is a quack, but I can't switch doctors until I get decent contacts.
Okay, here's a deep thought. I'm in II Chronicles now. I read about Rehoboam and his concubines this morning. The rampant polygamy in the Old Testament always bothers me. I feel so bad for all the wives and concubines, who, if they were lucky enough to love their husband, had to suffer through sharing him. Those women never got to experience real love with a man- and that was a normal situation. God allowed it for hundreds of years. Why? In light of this, I think we modern women assume too much. We assume God will give us the perfect happy relationship we want if we just wait on Him. Well, he didn't give it to those women. I know times are different now, and most people do get married these days...but something about it troubles me. Not for myself, really. Just in general.
